Shef (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} xshefdawgx) wrote,@ 2006-09-28 15:11:00 |
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I miss college. Rather, I miss Davis. Rather... I miss being a student. Rather... I miss everyone.
Oh, fuck it all. I miss everything there is to love about the last four years. And it hits hard when today is the day we would have been back in class, going to the bookstore and dealing with the madness of the text floor, picking up readers, and going to first lectures where you think you'll get out early, but some zealous prof decides to jump right into the material on the first day. I miss those first few days of the quarter, where you swear this time around, you won't procrastinate and you'll work your ass off... I played that idealism game 12 times, and it never got old. I miss walking around campus and people watching midday. I miss Unitrans. I miss seeing the eggheads. I miss the green room, and Darrell popping his head in to make fun of someone. I miss running into people everywhere. I miss picking up the Aggie and ignoring everything in it except the crossword and the Sudoku. I miss theater, the awful waiting game surrounding auditions... I miss peer advising, and A&L committee meetings, and calling Yann at 4PM saying "You free at 8? Cause I've got Mondavi tickets I forgot about!" I miss lazy Fridays with Emily (which is silly cause I see her everyday, but I miss them all the same). I miss night class, and my favorite TAs and professors... I honestly miss problem sets and paper research (wow, who would have thought?) I miss being a student in general. I miss my walk to campus through the Arboretum, chilling on the quad, every Davis eatery, every Davis bar, WOODSTOCKS, and so much more.
But more than ANYTHING... I miss the people who made Davis home. Above all, my roomies. I miss knowing that if I wanted to go grab coffee, or a drink, or just have couch time, I had countless people within a few miles to call, and there was always someone who was down to keep me company, or go on an adventure with.
The Davis I miss doesn't entirely exist anymore. I realized this last weekend while driving around how many people had left, and that if I was still there, it would feel empty. I guess I wish that the last year hadn't flown by so fast...
You know those people who never let go of high school? or college? and that's as good as it ever got for them? I refuse to be one of those people. But on my first day of officially not being a student, and for the first time in 17 years, not returning to the the public school system...
It's sinking in that the college chapter of my life is closed for good. And it sucks.
Oh, fuck it all. I miss everything there is to love about the last four years. And it hits hard when today is the day we would have been back in class, going to the bookstore and dealing with the madness of the text floor, picking up readers, and going to first lectures where you think you'll get out early, but some zealous prof decides to jump right into the material on the first day. I miss those first few days of the quarter, where you swear this time around, you won't procrastinate and you'll work your ass off... I played that idealism game 12 times, and it never got old. I miss walking around campus and people watching midday. I miss Unitrans. I miss seeing the eggheads. I miss the green room, and Darrell popping his head in to make fun of someone. I miss running into people everywhere. I miss picking up the Aggie and ignoring everything in it except the crossword and the Sudoku. I miss theater, the awful waiting game surrounding auditions... I miss peer advising, and A&L committee meetings, and calling Yann at 4PM saying "You free at 8? Cause I've got Mondavi tickets I forgot about!" I miss lazy Fridays with Emily (which is silly cause I see her everyday, but I miss them all the same). I miss night class, and my favorite TAs and professors... I honestly miss problem sets and paper research (wow, who would have thought?) I miss being a student in general. I miss my walk to campus through the Arboretum, chilling on the quad, every Davis eatery, every Davis bar, WOODSTOCKS, and so much more.
But more than ANYTHING... I miss the people who made Davis home. Above all, my roomies. I miss knowing that if I wanted to go grab coffee, or a drink, or just have couch time, I had countless people within a few miles to call, and there was always someone who was down to keep me company, or go on an adventure with.
The Davis I miss doesn't entirely exist anymore. I realized this last weekend while driving around how many people had left, and that if I was still there, it would feel empty. I guess I wish that the last year hadn't flown by so fast...
You know those people who never let go of high school? or college? and that's as good as it ever got for them? I refuse to be one of those people. But on my first day of officially not being a student, and for the first time in 17 years, not returning to the the public school system...
It's sinking in that the college chapter of my life is closed for good. And it sucks.
